Excessive And Suspicious Fear

since I experienced something very, very painful, for almost 3 years every day I was haunted by excessive fear, suspicion, and a deep curiosity, and feeling I always said that what my husband said was a lie. sometimes I get stressed, sometimes I like to think that I really want to kill other people.
1 Answer:
Hello Praise, thank you for asking to HealthReplies.com.
Let me introduce myself, Dr. Rio will answer your question.
Previously, I was sorry about how you feel every day, I understand that it really disturbs your mind. Based on the story you have told me, I can summarize some of the possibilities that you might experience, including
Paranoid type personality disorder.
Depression.
Paranoid Schizophrenia.
Anxiety Disorders.
To enforce a psychiatric disorder is not enough just a few complaints that you conveyed earlier. The need for direct communication in both directions, the doctor will ask many things about the complaints you feel. You should consult a doctor of psychiatrist directly for diagnosis, and for sure handling.
Right now what you can do is:
Try to think more positively.
Do positive activities that can divert your negative thoughts such as exercise, religious activities, etc.
Discuss your complaints with your husband, and discuss with a cool head.
Ask to be accompanied during the treatment period because it might take some time.
Avoid stress and overthinking.
That's all the answers I can give, thank you very much :)