Hurt Yourself And Feel You Have 2 Personalities?
Hi, I’m a 21 year old girl. I want to share. Because I always felt something was different from myself. Back when I was little I often deliberately hurt myself, like cutting a knife in my finger, without any problems whatsoever, I just liked doing it. I also feel that I have no empathy for other people, but I often pretend to cry for others who are sad, just because I feel bad if I don’t cry. I also never appreciate my achievements or others, for me everything is not important. I am sometimes quiet, but sometimes I am a person who mostly talks. I am very irritable and emotional. If I’m sad, I can blame myself too much to beat myself up. I also feel useless and stupid, but at the same time I also often feel confident and great at everything. I often think that I don’t deserve something. I also often cry but do not know the cause. But when I get hurt by other people, I act rather ordinary and not sad. There are times when I feel that I am a bad person, then I will act like a bad person, there are times when I feel like a bad boy, then I will be like a bad boy like smoking, drinking. There are times when I feel a good person, I will be a good person. I feel that I always have a character but it is easy to change to another character. But when I am at my parents’ house, I will stay in my character as a good kid, smart kid.
Hello Natasha :)
Thank you for the question.
The things you mentioned are complex things that cannot be directly assessed what causes them. It needs deeper digging related to the things you feel. However, these can all be signs of a personality disorder, which is where there are differences in mindset and behavior carried out by sufferers compared to normal people.
Personality disorders themselves are very numerous and have several categories, namely A, B, and C:
A Schizotipal personality disorder, sufferers tend to be weird and talk unnaturally, and often believe things that are not real. Schizoid personality disorder, sufferers are cold and tend not to make friends. Paranoid personality disorder, sufferers tend to be suspicious and distrustful of others. B Borderline personality disorder, sufferers have varying emotions, often hurt themselves, and take spontaneous actions such as free sex, drinking alcohol. Antisocial personality disorder, sufferers do not follow social norms, have no sympathy, and tend to commit criminal acts. Narcissistic personality disorder, sufferers believe that they are more than others. Histrionic personality disorder, sufferers tend to be dramatic and seek attention. C Dependent personality disorder, sufferers are usually very dependent on others. Personality disorders avoid, sufferers usually avoid social contact. Obsessive compulsive personality disorder, sufferers are usually perfectionists. This personality disorder is usually caused by factors such as disruption of hormonal balance in the brain, family history, past trauma, and social and economic factors. You should check with a psychiatrist so that the doctor can evaluate further complaints and determine the diagnosis, and provide appropriate therapy, such as psychotherapy which includes behavioral therapy, psychodynamic therapy, or interpersonal therapy.
I hope this helps :)