Why Can’t I Express Myself And Feel That I’m Not Just Me?
Hello, I’m a 17-year-old woman who is quite sensitive. I am not a broken home child or have experienced any kind of sexual assault, but I often get mental pressure from my parents and family since I was 13 or 14 years old. One and a half years later I often feel lightheadedness which in a long time, can be 3 to 4 hours and it’s really annoying. I felt like I wanted to end my life 2 times. The first I did not do, but the second I tried to hit my solar plexus as hard as possible, but ‘fortunately’ I did not die because when I was going to hit back, my parents shouted my name. I also have a tendency to not be able to express myself in terms of feeling sad. No matter how sad I am, I have never cried in the past year and a half. And what made me confused, I found a book in my closet, I knew it was my book, inside the book it was like pouring sadness. Initially I tried to think that the contents of the book were the writings of my friend even though I knew that the book was mine, but a few days ago when I opened the book again, the book had a new writing even though I had never brought it anywhere. I also often forget what I did yesterday or 2 days ago. What’s wrong with me? Because to be honest, I don’t want to go back to having thoughts of killing myself
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Everyone is tested by God with various problems in life, not only you. The difference is, how our attitude in dealing with the problem, whether we got through it and become a stronger person, or just the opposite, the problem that controls us and makes us worse because of it.
Often dizzy, easy to forget, to make a suicide attempt as you experience it could be one of the symptoms of depression. This depression can indeed occur related to past traumatic events, including the mental stress that comes from your parents and family as you experience it. Not only that, depression is also more easily experienced by people with hereditary mental disorders (including depression), people who experience hormonal balance disorders (for example post-partum mothers or people with thyroid hormone disorders), or people who experience structural disorders and balance of chemical compounds in their brain .
Because of depression, sufferers can experience feelings of sadness, feeling helpless, useless, until the desire to commit suicide crossed. Not only that, depressed people also often avoid social activities, happy to be alone, decreased appetite, decreased quality and quantity of sleep, decreased concentration, decreased memory, and experience a variety of fatigue complaints, for example dizziness, headaches, body aches nausea, vomiting, fatigue, weakness, and so on.
Not only depression, various other conditions, such as post traumatic stress disorder, cyclotymic disorder, depression due to the influence of alcohol or drugs, schizophrenia, etc. can also cause your complaints to appear.
Our advice, you consult yourself directly to the doctor or psychiatric specialist (psychiatrist) before your condition gets worse. Your complaint, if not handled properly, can put you at risk of taking actions that have the potential to endanger yourself and others around you.
Here are some initial suggestions that you should make:
Always live a healthy lifestyle, including by making a regular sleep and wake schedule, exercising regularly, eating with discipline Stay away from negative thoughts, both about yourself, people around you, and your life destiny. Busy yourself with activities that good, get along well with good friends Keep yourself away from alcohol, cigarettes and drugs Improve the quality of your worship Strengthen your relationship with parents, relatives, and people you trust can make yourself better Don't be reluctant to learn openly with the people closest to you, related to the problem you are having