Why Do I Feel Disgusted With Myself?
I want to ask. In certain conditions, specifically, when I’m close to the opposite sex that I like (crush) I often feel happy, but not long after that I immediately felt disgusted with my feelings. Then begin to feel uneasy. If you say trauma, I’m not sure. But in the past I was abused by my biological father, although I don’t really remember, but he had touched my genitals several times, but at that time I did not really understand what was happening, and furthermore he had never committed acts of rape etc. against me Every time I dress up to go out of the house, then see the opposite sex “see” my appearance, I also feel disgusted and uncomfortable with myself and feel like going home immediately to remove my makeup. Then for a while I will not come out home to “relieve” those feelings. I guess why? Can it be cured?
The way a person views a situation, situation or problem is determined by various factors, such as personality and character, or whether there is a past experience, whether it's parenting, environment, education, including the trauma of the past.
Such as feeling insecure when wearing makeup, or feeling uncomfortable when viewed by the opposite sex, or feeling dirty or disgusted when close to the opposite sex. Which all of these things can be influenced by various factors above, but because of mental health and psychological problems is a complicated thing, of course it will be difficult to be able to understand what is actually experienced by you, because these factors can overlap so that ultimately causes your response when faced with the situation.
For example (with illustrations)
Those who have melancholy personalities tend to be sensitive and overly carried away, so that it is possible when someone else sees a person with this personality, thinking that the other person is staring with lust or harassing him Parenting, how the person's growth and development process from childhood to adulthood . Like for example, is often scolded, too spoiled, too confined (many restrictions), etc. will make people tend to be less confident or afraid to interact with others, especially those of the opposite sex. For example, in education that being close to the opposite sex is taboo or something even tends to lead to a nasty condition, so that when close to the opposite sex even feel scared and disgusted, because it is believed to do something taboo and perverted past trauma, the existence of bad experiences in the past will make a deep hurt or hate so that when in similar situations such as being close to the opposite sex will expect to experience the same behavior in the past. The conditions above are only in the form of examples and illustrations, to be able to understand the actual conditions experienced by Previousj, a doctor needs to conduct more targeted and in-depth interview sessions and medical examinations so that the doctor can get a more objective picture of your mental health condition, then can be determined what efforts can be given to be able to overcome complaints that have previously experienced.
Because without doing a medical examination it will be difficult for doctors to be able to understand what the actual conditions experienced by Previousj, doctors also need to ensure that the absence of physical / physical illness that could have caused a way of thinking and perspective on your response to the situation, you need it is known that there is a disease or disorder in the physical / physical can change a person's behavior, such as head injuries, side effects of substances (such as narcotics, sedatives, poisoning, etc.).
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